tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-337285762024-03-08T00:48:32.831-05:00LOOKING AT THE WORLD GAYrecently divorced, moving on with my new life,looking forward to finally living in truth and hapiness and not looking backdaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.comBlogger118125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-81931585722414100022016-02-02T19:59:00.000-05:002016-02-02T19:59:12.666-05:00A new year...5 years laterHi all.....<br />
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Just wondering if any of you are still out there...been years since I have written anything...guess just haven't had anything to say...Still here...Still struggling 7 years later trying to find my way,still dealing with my son and his problems...Hoping to finally get him out of my house and then I can perhaps start finally living the life I gave up 31 years of marriage for.<br />
Hope all is well with all of youdaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-59087497601517365912010-07-20T21:06:00.002-04:002010-07-20T21:09:53.130-04:00not the onehi all how has the summer been treating you all<br /><br />it turns out that he was not necessarly the one....things pretty much had to be his way, at his place, with me toting the dogs to his house with their cages so they could be caged pretty much the whole time i was there...now my boys are a bit rambuctious, but there are good dogs, spoiled rotten, but good, and the fact that they are in cages while i am right there with them kinda irked me, so after the 4th weekend i needed some time to think, havn't called him nor has he called me so i guess he kinda feels the same way<br />oh well, was not quite sure he was the one anyways..was a good 40 minute hike every time i wanted to see him and was going 2-3 times a week..which would mean late night getting home on work nights<br />so to all my blog buddies that are left, i have been lurking, but not posting much...i hope you are all still gooddaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-2621807485616929012010-03-11T21:34:00.002-05:002010-03-11T21:38:03.231-05:00the onethe one, the one i will spend the rest of my life with has quietly snuck up on me and blew my socks off....i don't even know if anyone reads this anymore but i have fallen deeply in love with an incredible hot handsome man that i will marry and spend the rest of my life with<br />i cannot even begin to explain the depths that i feel right now, the passion, the love like i have never felt in my life.....and i loved my wife....but this. whew, this guy just came out of nowhere and landed in my lap like a gift from God<br />for that i am eternally grateful, and i thank all of you for putting up with sad ol dave for all these years....i smile,laugh, constantly hear birds singing, cannot wait to see him and life is so incredible right now i cannot even tell youdaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-86973447904944067812009-12-24T11:01:00.001-05:002009-12-24T11:03:53.848-05:00MERRY CHRISTMASjust simply MERRY CHRISTMAS to anyone out there that still reads this.....i am alive and well, and struggling through life and the economy like many of us<br />i hope all our dreams and wishes come true for this joyous holiday season and will promise to post more in 2010<br />again MERRY CHRISTMAS to all my blogger buddiesdaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-11033479211051646192009-09-12T18:54:00.002-04:002009-09-12T19:02:05.209-04:00health issuesfall appears to be upon us here in cleveland ohio...leaves are already starting to fall, temps are cooling,beautiful fall day here....sunny mid 70's but is getting dark by 8 now<br />went to a new dr this week...have been having leg problems for about a year now..swelling and lots of aching and pain.....probable cause is that i don't sleep well, havn't slept in bed in months as i fall asleep on couch and then wake up 2-3 in am and am up for the day.<br />new dr seems concerned about leg/health issues but more concerned with overall well being issues..still have guilt on the divorce, the reasons for divorce and how i destroyed the ex emotionally, son is still giving me problems with money....yeah the ass just keeps on crying and moaning....so new dr prescribed some type of anti-depressant...not sure about this have heard lots of pros and cons...but we shall see..will get filled tommarow and start and see what happens...so with all this sunny news..thats all for now from sunny clevelanddaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-60036712366926447932009-08-20T00:12:00.003-04:002009-08-20T00:18:20.198-04:00well i'm still herehi boys in blogland<br /><br />well still here,still breathing,bankruptcy done,foreclosure done, life goes on, have met some great people over summer...no torrid romance though.....the man i thought i fell for head over heals has turned out to be really messed up,as my friend out west has soooooooo predicted way back in march....i do miss my friend,have not talked to him in quiet a while...hope he is well, work is still work, being a gm dealership we were very close to being shut down, but we made the cut, now we will see how we do without pontiac as our inventory levels of that brand dwindle down to nothing..which leaves us with just buick and gmc truck......not much else to talk about..still hoping for my white knight......i know he is out there and will be riding up soon<br />on a positive note i have started working out again and have lost about 12 pounds of old man fat..feeling kinda good actually...started eating right again and getting outside that damn door...went on a actual date the other night...movie,dinner then drinks...was fun.....oh well boys hope all is well with all of you...promise promise i will start to post more.....<br />love you guys and have been thinking about all of you much and have been checking in on you regularlydaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-87335671295939783562009-05-10T19:25:00.002-04:002009-05-10T19:29:44.690-04:00alonewell the love of my life didn't work out, he was in a terribly abusive relationship for about 2 years to the point where he was hit by this guy and is so gunshy of anytype of relationship that seems like he is shutting himself off to the world, so here i am alone, with one good good friend i can always count on out west..he is always there for me,even though he has his own problems to eal with and always has time for me and always always the best advice...he is my lifeline right now...been dreaming alot of my past lately, the house, about times while we were all still living there as a family, woke up this am and the dream was so very real wasn't sure where i was at when i woke up...much sadness these last few days and i don't know why..have not been able to talk to anyone.....have not even left the house today....just very hard to even walk out the door...not sure whats ahead, sadness at what i left behind....its hard to even movedaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-4182656082497357722009-03-22T08:54:00.004-04:002009-03-22T08:57:37.819-04:00ikissed a guy and i liked ithey fellow bloggers....its been a while again, lots has happened, bankruptcy almost done,waiting for discharge...still screwing around with the house....dining room ceiling collapsed over winter....left a big mess, but no money to fix....oh well.....big news is i met a guy, wonderful, handsome big hearted wonderful damn fine guy and am head over heals in love right now for him......<br />he is a kind,gentle soul that would give you the shirt off his back and has the most beautiful green eyes anyways will post more later<br />hugs from clevelanddaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-10128741419868718012009-02-09T19:24:00.002-05:002009-02-09T19:28:16.303-05:00still aliveok boys still here still alive really suck lately at posting, wish i could say its all the dating i am doing ...lol.......finally got through the bankruptcy and had my creditor meeting last week,now just waiting should have a discharge in about 60 days......just in time for summer.....house should be done shortly.....right after christmas dining room ceiling caved in from a broken pipe in second floor that i have no freekin idea how as i was keeping house heated....and pipe was on inside wall...oh well....hope all your holidays were great...hope you all remember who i am.....promise to start posting more often if i can fit it in between all the hot guys in and out of here....hehehe<br />later<br />over and out from clevfeland ohiodaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-38576738671940711642008-12-24T15:39:00.002-05:002008-12-24T15:42:22.510-05:00MERRY CHRISTMASi have been so lacking the last month since thanksgiving and just wanted to take a minute to wish all my blog friends a very merry christmas .....the new year will i hope be much better as this one is ending pretty crappy......i love all you guys out there who still read me and thank you for hanging in there with me...hope your holiday is great<br />love and hugs from clevelanddaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-42991471173454721552008-11-27T06:46:00.001-05:002008-11-27T06:48:03.212-05:002008what a difference a year makes<br /><br /><br />happy thanksgiving to all my blog buddies out there...hope you and yours have a great day and promise that i will post more<br /><br />davedaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-26491717613839801692008-11-13T21:11:00.003-05:002008-11-13T21:15:38.249-05:00lifes wicked turnswell boys the last month has been a monster for me....being hounded by creditors.still dealing with the house.....incredible slow down at work due to the wonderful economy...so took the big step tonight and hired an attorney and filed bankruptcy.....why didn't i do this 3-4 months ago dealing with a grand total of about 250k hanging over my head....qualify for chapter 7 and should be totally over by january....thats about all that there is new here in cold cleveland<br />holidays are coming....sure will be different this year<br />hope all you are good<br />promise to post more<br />over and out in clevelanddaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-4403370606181027192008-10-17T00:05:00.004-04:002008-10-17T00:12:45.781-04:00seven stepsi want to take a few minutes here tonight and let all you wonderful people out there that there is an awesome blog out the <a href="http://www.gaytwogether.com/">www.gaytwogether.com</a> that you all need to check out..michael is by far the most wonderful,kind gentle soul of a person that i have ever had the privelge and honor to know<br />his daily diary series that he has started this week is by far helping me to see myself for all the good that i have in me...i am wonderful and can look in the mirror and see the person that is inside this shell screaming to get out and with his help i am finally discovering this person who has been hidden behind i don't know what for years<br />thank you my wonderful,gentle michael may all you readers discover what i am discovering about my self<br />check this blog out,its well worth it and there is also tremendous hot eye candy every daydaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-32825012346972025872008-10-06T20:58:00.001-04:002008-10-06T21:09:42.223-04:00blame/self-esteemyou may all wonder just what this is about...but i am going to try and explain what i mean..i have been blaming my self for months about all the oh woe shit i am going through,blaming my self for all that has transpired with my ex, my son, my daughter, its all been my fault, i have caused it all, no one else had anything to do with it.....so the more i blame myself of all the crap the lower my self esteem has been moving to the point where i am so damn depressed<br />but........there is this miracle man....and if you have not checked him out make sure you check out the site Gaytwogether.......Michael has by far the biggest heart, the most kind,gentle loving spirit out of anyone i have ever had the pleasure of knowing...he announced to the world today on how deeply deeply he is in love with his steven....this is a happy miracle story that you all need to read, his daily diary is just with out word, wonderful...check it out, anyway he has been talking with me and is getting me to look at things a whole new way...positive,wonderful, and when i walked outside this morning i saw the sun, heard the birds, could smell the wonderful smell of fall in the air...i feel alive again, first time in a long time and yes, i am a good person, yes i am wonderful, and there will be someone out there that will be damn lucky to find me<br />thank you dear michaeldaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-63202333718258216312008-09-24T06:07:00.002-04:002008-09-24T06:09:59.301-04:00shockedi heard the news this morning about 4:50am....stunned, shocked, my world was rocked....not sure how i am going to get through the day, cannot believe, how we, the american public has been lied to all these years..but alas, its true, i couldn't believe it when i heard, could not have guessed in a million years...the last one on earth that i would suspect<br /><br />CLAY AIKEN IS GAY.....OMG...I AM SHOCKED, STUNNEDdaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-21664643854143875432008-09-02T21:18:00.001-04:002008-09-02T21:20:52.336-04:00yup...i'm realso after all these years i guess i decided that its time to reveal that i really really do exist...so to all you out there....this is me..don't laugh too hard....i look like someones grandfather and no i am NOT a grandfather...will not be happy with the two kids should i become one at this young age...hehehe,,,anyways all you have a great nightdaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-19983321636066459022008-08-04T16:59:00.001-04:002008-08-04T17:01:03.672-04:00lifeshort and sweet.....i love my new house........i am loving my new life....i have met a really great guy......i could not be happier right nowdaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-73017551903810694212008-07-27T09:32:00.002-04:002008-07-27T09:38:12.544-04:00new life........new lookhey boys...well its sunday am and setting here in my new family room watching the 2 dogs sleeping on the floor, they seem to be adjusting, and realizing this is my new life, soooo,thought i would start with a new look for the ol blog....deleted a couple of now defunct blogs....most surprised about our beloved cooper....to say i was shocked this week is mild...but then without meeting people who the hell knows who we are.....i have talked to a couple of you guys out there so at least a couple of you know i am real.....at least i think i am...God knows its taken me years to become real....lol....anyways going to go to the old house this morning to do some more packing,some painting and cleaning cause i have to get it ready to try and sell..bank is starting to give me some grief about not making payments.....<br />will be talking to a lawyer this week about bankruptcy....think this is the best and only way<br />so with that all being said,happy sunday, its really a beautiful sunday morning here<br />love all you guysdaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-12126336664261392672008-07-18T21:59:00.002-04:002008-07-18T22:05:54.351-04:00my last nighttonight,friday night i am busy packing, loading clothes, damn i never knew i had so many...and shoes...damn...should have known all along....clothes horse and 2 big boxes of shoes...oh well.the dishes are packed, the china already moved, she left so much, but took also, oh well i am tonight spending the last night in my home, the home i was born in, spent my entire childhood, watches as i grew up my parents scraping and skimping to keep the house nice and updated, and tommarow morning at 8 a truck arrives to move me out...never to sleep here again, never to walk through these rooms with memories of family christmas time, kids birthday parties, i watched my mother pass away in the livingroom, but, tommarow i start over in a new home, a great home, and realize that i can never look back, only forward, the memories i will always have and that this is nothing more than a building of wood and glass, so fellow gay travelers keep me in your thoughts tommarow as i relocate and hoist the rainbow flag on a new neighborhood...hehehedaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-90641748438760756672008-07-07T06:08:00.002-04:002008-07-07T06:11:29.096-04:00she' gonehey there buddies...well she and my daughter moved out this weekend, and while the quiet and freedom are awesome, it is a little sad walking through the house and seeing my daughters room that is now empty, lots of stuff missing off walls and now there are spackle patches where pictures one hung, but in now less than 2 weeks i will be in my new home also, fresh start,new beginnings and bla bla bla.......so any hooooo, will go for now but just wanted to update y'all, been lousy at posting latelydaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-69840622877558149502008-06-22T08:43:00.002-04:002008-06-22T08:47:42.732-04:00on my waywell, fellow travelers , i did it, i signed the lease yesterday, charming 4 bdr, 1 bath cape cod home in south euclid ohio, attached garage, family room with fire place, all appliances left for me, allowed to paint, decorate any way i see fit, we will talk in a year about lease with option to buy the house....750.00 per month plus utilities....move date:JULY 19.....cannot wait, i can take both my dogs with me...sooooooo thats it....she is supposed to move out next weekend and then can get moving on my packing, couple things i need to do to house and hoping to have on market by july 1st.....with that being said hope you all have a great day and will give you all the address so you can come and help......hehehedaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-38752736847146304612008-06-15T08:41:00.002-04:002008-06-15T08:47:18.175-04:00happy fathers dayhey all you dads out ther happy fathers day to you..cannot believe its been almost a month since i last posted, things have been crazy home,at work,<br />countdown ..2 weeks to go till they move, the house is an absolute disaster, i cannot believe that they had so much stuff in the house, and they are taking it all with them into a house 1/2 size of the current house......i plan on moving sometime mid july, gonna try and get house listed by first part of july, i contacted my bank the other day to advise them of the situation, and they gave me 3 options, first was to make the payment like i am supposed to, second is to take in borders, third is to get a part time job, nothing about helping with interest rate,reduction in payments.am going to try for a short sale, but if that doesn't work will go for a deed in lieu of forclosure, have contracted a realtor and am talking with attorney to help with all this....<br />anyways thats about it for now, i will not stay away so long as you guys are my lifeline here right now and have missed you alldaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-88443162405112374212008-05-21T22:22:00.002-04:002008-05-21T22:26:06.476-04:00recently missed blogsjust a quick note to several bloggers who have recently seem to have vanished. coopers corridor was an extremely well written blog on his life and life of his 2 wonderful boys...what a great dad he is and i truly miss reading his words everyday, many times his words helped me through a rough time that i may have been going through, another great blog that i have grown to love is akoni chaputs blog, another wonderful "brotherman" who helped me a lot...i miss these two guys alot and hope they are both ok.....if either read this enty much love and hugs to you bothdaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-43145894683765428702008-05-18T08:24:00.002-04:002008-05-18T08:32:24.177-04:00sunday amwell boys, its sunday am sitting here at my favorite caribou coffee in mayfield heights playing with my new gateway m series laptop...wow how awesome is this thing.....<br />so here are some updates, their bid was accepted on house so they will be moving sometime 20th of june, major packing going on now, i have a realtor meeting me this am at house to appraise and probably list, may wait till they and their clutter are out....have landed a really beautiful house to rent in south euclid...3 bedroom, attached garage family room with fireplace, friend of owners of my business where i work, he is charging me 750.00 per month rent.....he is leaving some furniture for me also........deal i can't pass up, and i can take the dog with me...so that was my main important factor.....last saturday on way home from work timing chain broke on my car......new engine, or new car......trying to figure budget out i can lease a new pontiac g6 with nothing down for about 197 per month, but that is a low mile lease and i really don't like the idea of leasing...you have nothing at the end of lease, probably going to fix my grand am...nice car except it doesn't run right now......and yeah have gone out couple times again with my hot man.....dudes with all the shit i cannot tell you how i feel so free, so whole, just fucking awesome<br />later and lots of hugs from clevelanddaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33728576.post-3423006682347782002008-04-30T05:59:00.002-04:002008-04-30T06:05:18.404-04:00dinnerok boys here it is, nothing spectacular, went to dinner at a neat little place in downtown, had a great meal, great conversation, couple glasses of wine, candle light at the table, could not stop looking at the eyes, incredible blue eyes, food was good, then we took a walk along the lake, by the rock and roll hall of fame and science center......great night, temps great, stopped to look at tomething and oh wait, he kissed me, just a quicky but he kissed me, first kiss as a really out gay single man............how fucking liberating is this.......well finally ended the night and took him back to his place, said goodnight and we kissed, this time a little more than a peck......this feels fucking awesome...........<br />anyways shared this next little humourous note with my buddy michael in norfolk the other night, you all know i am looking for a house to rent, well i looked at one the other day on a street in mayfield heights called "FRUITLAND DRIVE" i must have this house...is this not perfect<br />all for now<br />much love from cleveland<br />davedaveinclevelandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12322520630429327304noreply@blogger.com16