Wednesday, September 13, 2006

does age really matter???

ok so i just read biggs latest entry and to tell ya the truth he has hit the nail right on the head. while he is certainly younger than i am, i am 55, while i don't feel i look or act it, as a gay man would there be any chance of happiness and love ...the gay world is so freekin age and apperance driven, and the bars,even though i have never been to one are probably all full of young hot built studs who would have no problem hooking up for the night, but is that all there is? then there is the role playing, the daddy, the young ones, i just want someone to hold, cuddle with, make dinner for, just go through the every day adventures of being in love with someone and being loved by someone, i think i am rambling here and i wonder is there anyone else out there that feels like this, while i am still married i am very much alone in the same house, we don't go anywhere, do very little together, very little conversation, so while i realize she is lonely so am i, and the prospect of possible divorce, then living as a ancient gay man alone scares me.

4 comments:

The Persian said...

aww buddy, after reading that I just want to give you a big hug.

It's a tough market out there sometimes, but the "club" scene has always been that way straight or gay.

I don't know what to say, I keep myself isolated mostly, apart from the blog where I "let it all loose". No bars or (rarely anyway) chat rooms. I am as well afraid of being ancient and alone and want nothing more than someone to enjoy my life with.

:(

daveincleveland said...

you are too sweet jim.....you deserve the best.......hugs to ya ....:)

Rey D said...

Hi Jim,

I just came across your blog, and felt the need to comment on this post even though it's been a while since you wrote it.

I'm 46, my bf is 51, and so neither of us is a spring chicken.

While it is true that things are very tough out there, that is not reason for you not to go out and attempt to socialize with real people. I don't know what's like in Cleveland, but here in New York, there is something for just about any age; all you need is the will and energy do it. Mind you, people in NY tend to be a bit jaded, and while some people will not talk to you unless you are young and hot, others will.

I think that staying in touch with the gay community through a computer is a very good idea, but please don't rely uniquely on that. Go out and meet someone, anyone. Have a face to face conversation. See what is like to talk to all the different kind of gay dudes out there (we are a very diverse kind of people). And when you interact with other, do your best not to be judge mental. We gay people can be extremely judge mental. You will find that even thought many of people (or majority) that go to bars and clubs tend to be younger (sometimes much younger), there are also people around your age as well. When you go out, don't do this with the idea of finding your sweet heart right away, or getting laid necessarily, just go out there with the idea of interacting with people. And if you don't speak to someone one day, there's always the next time.

I don't have a blog, but if you feel like e-mailing me, you should be
able to do it through the link.

R

BentonQuest said...

Not that getting into shape is a bad thing, but, after hiding for so many years, do you want someone who loves you or the (new and different) image you are projecting? Is it any different playing straight as it is playing studly model?