Wednesday, September 13, 2006
does age really matter???
ok so i just read biggs latest entry and to tell ya the truth he has hit the nail right on the head. while he is certainly younger than i am, i am 55, while i don't feel i look or act it, as a gay man would there be any chance of happiness and love ...the gay world is so freekin age and apperance driven, and the bars,even though i have never been to one are probably all full of young hot built studs who would have no problem hooking up for the night, but is that all there is? then there is the role playing, the daddy, the young ones, i just want someone to hold, cuddle with, make dinner for, just go through the every day adventures of being in love with someone and being loved by someone, i think i am rambling here and i wonder is there anyone else out there that feels like this, while i am still married i am very much alone in the same house, we don't go anywhere, do very little together, very little conversation, so while i realize she is lonely so am i, and the prospect of possible divorce, then living as a ancient gay man alone scares me.