health issues

fall appears to be upon us here in cleveland ohio...leaves are already starting to fall, temps are cooling,beautiful fall day here....sunny mid 70's but is getting dark by 8 now
went to a new dr this week...have been having leg problems for about a year now..swelling and lots of aching and pain.....probable cause is that i don't sleep well, havn't slept in bed in months as i fall asleep on couch and then wake up 2-3 in am and am up for the day.
new dr seems concerned about leg/health issues but more concerned with overall well being issues..still have guilt on the divorce, the reasons for divorce and how i destroyed the ex emotionally, son is still giving me problems with money....yeah the ass just keeps on crying and moaning....so new dr prescribed some type of anti-depressant...not sure about this have heard lots of pros and cons...but we shall see..will get filled tommarow and start and see what happens...so with all this sunny news..thats all for now from sunny cleveland

well i'm still here

hi boys in blogland

well still here,still breathing,bankruptcy done,foreclosure done, life goes on, have met some great people over summer...no torrid romance though.....the man i thought i fell for head over heals has turned out to be really messed up,as my friend out west has soooooooo predicted way back in march....i do miss my friend,have not talked to him in quiet a while...hope he is well, work is still work, being a gm dealership we were very close to being shut down, but we made the cut, now we will see how we do without pontiac as our inventory levels of that brand dwindle down to nothing..which leaves us with just buick and gmc truck......not much else to talk about..still hoping for my white knight......i know he is out there and will be riding up soon
on a positive note i have started working out again and have lost about 12 pounds of old man fat..feeling kinda good actually...started eating right again and getting outside that damn door...went on a actual date the other night...movie,dinner then drinks...was fun.....oh well boys hope all is well with all of you...promise promise i will start to post more.....
love you guys and have been thinking about all of you much and have been checking in on you regularly

alone

well the love of my life didn't work out, he was in a terribly abusive relationship for about 2 years to the point where he was hit by this guy and is so gunshy of anytype of relationship that seems like he is shutting himself off to the world, so here i am alone, with one good good friend i can always count on out west..he is always there for me,even though he has his own problems to eal with and always has time for me and always always the best advice...he is my lifeline right now...been dreaming alot of my past lately, the house, about times while we were all still living there as a family, woke up this am and the dream was so very real wasn't sure where i was at when i woke up...much sadness these last few days and i don't know why..have not been able to talk to anyone.....have not even left the house today....just very hard to even walk out the door...not sure whats ahead, sadness at what i left behind....its hard to even move

ikissed a guy and i liked it

hey fellow bloggers....its been a while again, lots has happened, bankruptcy almost done,waiting for discharge...still screwing around with the house....dining room ceiling collapsed over winter....left a big mess, but no money to fix....oh well.....big news is i met a guy, wonderful, handsome big hearted wonderful damn fine guy and am head over heals in love right now for him......
he is a kind,gentle soul that would give you the shirt off his back and has the most beautiful green eyes anyways will post more later
hugs from cleveland

still alive

ok boys still here still alive really suck lately at posting, wish i could say its all the dating i am doing ...lol.......finally got through the bankruptcy and had my creditor meeting last week,now just waiting should have a discharge in about 60 days......just in time for summer.....house should be done shortly.....right after christmas dining room ceiling caved in from a broken pipe in second floor that i have no freekin idea how as i was keeping house heated....and pipe was on inside wall...oh well....hope all your holidays were great...hope you all remember who i am.....promise to start posting more often if i can fit it in between all the hot guys in and out of here....hehehe
later
over and out from clevfeland ohio

MERRY CHRISTMAS

i have been so lacking the last month since thanksgiving and just wanted to take a minute to wish all my blog friends a very merry christmas .....the new year will i hope be much better as this one is ending pretty crappy......i love all you guys out there who still read me and thank you for hanging in there with me...hope your holiday is great
love and hugs from cleveland

2008

what a difference a year makes


happy thanksgiving to all my blog buddies out there...hope you and yours have a great day and promise that i will post more

dave