so today is thursday, another blah day in cleveland and i realized that i really suck at posting, i have no creativity or gifts with words like bigg or the ever handsome persian guy, but when i speak its from my heart, because thats where it all comes from anyways. i feel like this huge black cloud hanging over me and following me around where ever i go, for instance, yes i have been found out, yes i am gay YIPEE! a year and 1/2 ago thought by last summer would be living the fabulous life of a gay man in cleveland ohio, parties every night, men all over the place, wow, what a rude awakening, no parties, no men, well, almost, no emotional relationship with a man, still married, financially cannot do anything, i think my wife sometimes thinks the everything will just go away, but hasn't ...then this summer comes, she goes on vacation and in that week, my 25 year old son, who was arrested and convicted of trafficaing and possesion of crminal tools a year ago, and got probation, with 100 fine and thats in, was only required to do 50 hours of community service, didn;t do it, he borrowed my bank card on fathers day to get stuff to make dinner for me as wife was on vacation, proceeded to electronically transfer close to 2 grand out of my account to his credit card and then cash advance out of that account, and he disappears. so here i am, wife has come home, she checked balance in account, cause she doesn't trust me, and finds this out, so i start to do some digging and we found all this shit on my son.
so fastforward 1 month hear from my son, he has moved in with a friend, but that is only temp, till his friend moves out of his apt so that lasted about 3 weeks and then stayed with another friend till he was asked to leave, now what does gay dad do, worry his son is gonna hit the street, so he puts son in a hotel where he has been for last 3 weeks to the tune of close to 1500.oo, now gay husband non loving wife agrees that I should sign a lease for him for an apt for 400 per onth with son has promissed to pay......anyways i am depressed as shit, i just need to get away, gather my thoughts away from all this bull shit and work and i just need a break.
will continue this next chapter soon