Thursday, October 05, 2006

my so called life chapter 2..this is good guys

so today is thursday, another blah day in cleveland and i realized that i really suck at posting, i have no creativity or gifts with words like bigg or the ever handsome persian guy, but when i speak its from my heart, because thats where it all comes from anyways. i feel like this huge black cloud hanging over me and following me around where ever i go, for instance, yes i have been found out, yes i am gay YIPEE! a year and 1/2 ago thought by last summer would be living the fabulous life of a gay man in cleveland ohio, parties every night, men all over the place, wow, what a rude awakening, no parties, no men, well, almost, no emotional relationship with a man, still married, financially cannot do anything, i think my wife sometimes thinks the everything will just go away, but hasn't ...then this summer comes, she goes on vacation and in that week, my 25 year old son, who was arrested and convicted of trafficaing and possesion of crminal tools a year ago, and got probation, with 100 fine and thats in, was only required to do 50 hours of community service, didn;t do it, he borrowed my bank card on fathers day to get stuff to make dinner for me as wife was on vacation, proceeded to electronically transfer close to 2 grand out of my account to his credit card and then cash advance out of that account, and he disappears. so here i am, wife has come home, she checked balance in account, cause she doesn't trust me, and finds this out, so i start to do some digging and we found all this shit on my son.

so fastforward 1 month hear from my son, he has moved in with a friend, but that is only temp, till his friend moves out of his apt so that lasted about 3 weeks and then stayed with another friend till he was asked to leave, now what does gay dad do, worry his son is gonna hit the street, so he puts son in a hotel where he has been for last 3 weeks to the tune of close to 1500.oo, now gay husband non loving wife agrees that I should sign a lease for him for an apt for 400 per onth with son has promissed to pay......anyways i am depressed as shit, i just need to get away, gather my thoughts away from all this bull shit and work and i just need a break.
will continue this next chapter soon

4 comments:

Polt said...

Wow....dude....and I thought I had stress in my life....

I don't know what to tell ya man. Just be careful about money issues and your son...I mean, I know you don't want bad things to happen to him, but he's already done some pretty nasty things regarding your money....

I don't know, Dave...just be careful, that's all I can say....

HUGS and stuff...

daveincleveland said...

and the funny thing is, i sit back and laugh at everything cause if i tried to talk to people about the last year and 1/2 then would never believe me, gay man, convict son, pissed off wife, pissed off daughter and my dog....damn, what a country song my life would make...hahaha

The Persian said...

aww man I'm sooo sorry. Your son sounds like he might need some tough love (yea I know easier said right?) He has to learn he can't just take and take without consequence.

I wish I was there to give you a big hug and tell ya it's gonna be ok.

:(

Bookr said...

All I can say Dave is that I am older than you and I have been there with my son (not the money part but the jail and the stealing part)and we got through it. Life is a series of hills and valleys and it makes us stronger. You show a lot of guts putting it out there for the world to see and I appreciate being able to hear your story. There are better days ahead.