Saturday, September 15, 2007

empty title

not much as happened this week, still not feeling 100%...nasty cough and lots of thinking is keeping me up virtuly all night...have not gotten than a couple hours sleep any night this week, i keep running in my head over and over again what i have done, what i did to her, if we split she will be alone, and i will move on in my merry way and perhaps find the one man out there i was meant to be with..........guess i keep punishing myself for not being "normal"...its hard sometimes to see other couples, other families with there kids, and keep thinking..why can't i be like that, why can't i make the last 2 years just go away.....anyways it won't happen, i can't do that.....its just sad................
house arrest has sucked...lasted about 3 days.........just had to get out............went to walmart....wooooo hooooooooo, but forgot to buy the damn push up bars...so get to go to walmart today.........
ended up in emergency room thursday night, my foot has been hurting on and off at the joint of the toes....could have sworn something was fractured, alas, i am having a major arthritic inflamation episode.......take advil and stay off feet...............right..........
anyways you all have a great weekend

4 comments:

Sh@ney said...

A very hard place to be my friend, between doing what is right for you & what seems right for everyone else, yet shouldn't your own happiness come first? We all have just 'one' shot at living & it is meant to be for the better. I really hope someday soon you can get through this difficulty & begin to live the life you were meant too. Don't regret who you are, it is the way it is meant to be. There are a lot of men in a similar situation, I just wish I could help them break free. All I can say is find a way! Do it for yourself. xoxox

Creative Thinker said...

I hope you are feeling better, baby. Thank you for your kind words. I realllllly wish I were there to give you a great big hug and say thank you for all the support you have given me. You will never know how much I appreciate it. Hopefully, you can make your way down to Memphis sometime and we can spend some time together. Take care buddy and know that I am in your corner.

Stephen said...

You know my friend, if there is anyone out there in this big old world that understands the pain, the heartache, you're going through it's Stephen. You have friends that care, always remember that, hold on to it, things will get better. hugs from a friend.

Steven said...

Oh, Dave. :-(

It's easy for me to say, but please don't beat yourself up. You're as special as everyone else in this world. i hope your pain wanes and you are better soon!